Keep Dreamin’ And I’m gonna keep my life together Like I’m light as a feather And when I’m down I’ll Build it from the ground up I’ve got my sound makin’ improvement From a foundation proven To have come to fruition Where they pound basement music Underground Love the sound I am in the thunder now Lightning flashes Life flies past us Though I will never catch up I will never fall through I apologize for all the drama thats involved you Whether it be Makin’ a beat Or if you’ve fallen in love with me I promise to keep my eyes set upon a height I will never reach Whether it be Makin’ a beat Or if you’ve fallen in love with me I promise to keep my eyes set upon a height I will never reach And Keep Dreamin’ Keep Dreamin’ Keep Dreamin’ Keep Dreamin’ I’m sure you feel it I’m a mission impossible Spittin’ the gospel Of an ex-drug addict one day away from the hospital If not impossible Then certainly improbable No day job No pay from Anything but my main love Music in Two different Forms of expression My feet move And they lead me to Exactly where my pen is Thats how I form the sentence Thats how I write the rent check The internet The electric The mechanic The dentist If I was my apprentice I would offer this advice Explore directions carefully then build to love your life And keep dreamin’ Keep dreamin’ Keep dreamin’ Keep dreamin’ Whatever comes up comes out We don’t put our hands over our mouths nah Whatever comes up comes out We don’t put our hands over our mouths Ok sure I’ll give it a whirl I live in a world Of what goes up comes down and what comes up comes out I can’t block it Stop it Livin’ in emotional tropics It’s a rain forest Sometimes its a pain forest But I never pay for it I keep it open like a channel Let my life develop and hold it tight like a handle Gimme that fuckin’ beat right Now gimme that fuckin’ weed pipe Listen to what I say see I’m exactly who I seem like No lies No Colt 45’s I wrote no rhymes Till the day I got clean and un-doped my mind The pen is the friend That returns to me again And shakes me out my slumber and reminds me who I am I keep dreamin’

So what if I live constantly ready for the bottom I haven’t forgotten the problems But I’m ready for the garden Of Eden Believin’ That even when I’m sleepin’ My stomped footprints gon’ stick in the cement Ima stroll down the sidewalk Of my walk I might arrive and I might not But even if I get stuck in my steps Ima be where I be when I leave what I’ve left Welcome into the psyche Of the highly unlikely Of the best believe that its true what I’m writing I assume that I’m fighting For a proper cause I’d rather die tryin’ than not live at all Welcome into the psyche Of the highly unlikely Of the best believe that its true what I’m writing I assume that I’m fighting For a proper cause I’d rather die tryin’ than not live at all I learned to cherish every moment every sentence And since then I’ve given myself the rest to mend As well as the space to vent Create the vacuum then let in the visitors Dissolve the walls leave the vault for the listeners You can have my secrets Believe it Find the truth and seek it Find the you in me kid We’ve gotta get collective and collaborative I use the setlist as a catalyst This is the the psyche Of the highly unlikely Of the best believe this is true what I’m writing I assume that I’m fighting For a proper cause I’d rather die tryin’ than not live at all The psyche Of the highly unlikely Of the best believe that its true what I’m writing I assume that I’m fighting For a proper cause I’d rather die tryin’ than not live at all At all At all At all This is effort Everyday expression Every day my lesson Is livin’ like it’s the last one Wake up take a breathe Stay up take a step In the direction of where I wanna get I will not let anything stop me I will not let anything block me I will not let anything block my way My Ay Ay Ay Listen as I move again to the music that lives Inside of me as I give The world a piece of my ribs 
Take the constant movement Combine it with my two cents And you will find my mind is not polluted I am sharp as a tack As I bark out my raps And embark through the dark and the shards and the shrapnel That old melody propels me forth The energy is limitless when I draw from the source Sing Sing When we draw from the source I sing Sing When I draw from the source I sing Sing And when I draw from the source I sing Sing Singin’ Ay Ay Ay Welcome into the psyche Of the highly unlikely Of the best believe that its true what I’m writing I assume that I’m fighting For a proper cause I’d rather die tryin’ than not live at all

You can call it what you will I’m still Ill with my focus Walkin’ like I’ve forgotten How to stop and smell the roses But a caution sign approaches Heavy in the distance Staring at my deadly like I gotta find my rhythm The clock steady tickin’ like a drum kick punchin’ Buildin’ these walls but it’s all for nothin’ And all this strugglin’ psyche requires Is a little bit of time To sit and be inspired I find that I wear myself ragged Picture myself havin’ Some time to sit and kick back man So I do but it’s not productive I am a damn conundrum I am a dam eruptin’ Floodin’ the town like fuck em’ I don’t know how to function Without disfunction I met the man in the mirror but I just can’t seem to love him I just can’t seem to trust him Even on this track My heart is buried in a chest That is locked in a rap And they say love is the same in any language If thats true I gotta figure out a way to phrase it They say love is the same in any language If thats true I gotta figure out a way to phrase it They say love is the same in any language If thats true I gotta figure out a way to phrase it Basics get back to the basics Let that be the basis For everything that turns my pages I’ve strayed from the faces that supported me yep Listened as I spouted all sorts of regrets I been in a pattern of extreme extroversion And I’ve hidden behind a curtain During the times that I am hurtin’ But thats not the type of person I am I thrive on wearing my heart on the sleeve of the arm of the hand That I write with And I might just disappear tonight As long as it takes for me to see that somethin’ isn’t right And I can’t keep livin’ like it is Poundin’ my head against my fist I’m listless Give me some time to think I scream like I’m a stunt double Why does the life I lead tend to make me so uncomfortable Why can’t I sleep Why can’t I be happy This type of satisfaction isn’t satisfying me And they say love is the same in any language If thats true I gotta figure out a way to phrase it They say love is the same in any language If thats true I gotta figure out a way to phrase it They say love is the same in any language I try to pick it up enough To pick myself up out the dust Here I am again workin’ on channeling my love But I’m dismantling it cuz I am not handling it well I get a bit overwhelmed And turn my house into a cell Into a jail Into a hell Into an isolated masterpiece I suffocate cuz I forget that I have to breathe And then I atrophy Alone inside this home of mine Can’t help but wonder if I’ll be alright Give me some meaning and we’ll see if we can meet again I need some semblance of my heart to charge and reach the pen I gotta be adamant And animate Till I’m out of ink Be open to what my inner child can bring Get loud and sing If love is the same in any language Then I should know that I don’t have to try and change me And If love is the same.

I been usin’ all of my love I been usin’ all of my love I been usin’ all of my love My Love My Love Dance to the rhythm of the heart that beats so strong for me Thats me that mine that inner eye has got to honor me And I’ve felt it before and I’ll feel it again In the middle of everything everything ends Up and down As I rush around So much to comprehend Does it feel like flying Does it feel like dying Does it feel like driving With an open soul down an open road Well yes I guess it’s so I guess I know The truth right Except who might Mistake me for myself You probably can’t tell But I’ve got one less notch on my belt My pride is chopped ego cut Nothing to fight for who want what Standin’ deep in a puddle of mud Covered in blood I’ve struggled enough I been usin’ all of my love I been usin’ all of my love I been usin’ all of my love My Love My Love I been usin’ all of my love I been usin’ all of my love I been usin’ all of my love My Love My Love Rocked My feet feel so locked My Chi feels so blocked My cheeks feel so flushed Dust Carry me away Before I’m buried in decay Internalized Inferno fires I’m marrying my fate I’m tying in a knot the ring is rosy-ing around my finger Closing in around my finger I know it’s a lot to bring up I’ve got myself hit Selfish I’ve got my heart all closed up Shellfish Tell me this Why is it That I’ll admit To anything but that in which Reveals a piece of me that I’m uncomfortable with Bars frames Bar games The hard things Have all changed And yet I still exist inside The barrel when the pistol fires. I been usin’ all of my love I been usin’ all of my love I been usin’ all of my love My Love My Love I been usin’ all of my love I been usin’ all of my love I been usin’ all of my love My Love My Love

When I just don’t feel alive The dust collects I clean but I can’t clean up this mess When I just don’t feel alive I can’t accept The fact that I’ll never come close to perfect When I just don’t feel alive The dust collects I clean but I can’t clean up this mess When I just don’t feel alive I can’t accept The fact that I’ll never come close to perfect I’ll be the first to admit The fits They get The best of me Depression Yes I guess It’s festering Welling inside And telling me lies Like I’m ready to die I’m not though nip that one in the bud Though it’s not something I’m able to sit back and discuss What The fuck Is up With this Bullshit I been feeling like a muthafuckin’ animal Every time I see the red flag matador I’m bout to splash scream cannonball Been flung over the wall from a catapult I’m flying through the air again Like I just woke up don’t know where I’ve been Friends say I’m M.I.A. Twenty eight flights too many mind states When I just don’t feel alive The dust collects I clean but I can’t clean up this mess When I just don’t feel alive I can’t accept The fact that I’ll never come close to perfect When I just don’t feel alive The dust collects I clean but I can’t clean up this mess When I just don’t feel alive I can’t accept The fact that I’ll never come close to perfect Sittin’ in my room so volatile Unable to move but I gotta go When the sun comes out and the rainbow glows Gotta aim my goals at the pot o’ gold Till then I live in the pits Destructive still not givin’ a shit I Play all the black notes Act like an asshole Turn inward and wage a battle I isolate myself from greatness Sleep in the kick drum wake when the bass hits When I live with the pain imported I need a restraining order When I can’t maintain euphoria I have no balance I run from silence In the constant midst Of stimulus To not allow breath is vindictive Too many problems hidden within The problems within My problems within Too many problems hidden within The problems again I sing as a I sin When I just don’t feel alive The dust collects I clean but I can’t clean up this mess When I just don’t feel alive I can’t accept The fact that I’ll never come close to perfect When I just don’t feel alive The dust collects I clean but I can’t clean up this mess When I just don’t feel alive I can’t accept The fact that I’ll never come close to perfect When the world I’m in Is a world of sin I crush the ball that I curl up in In out breathe now Don’t make a prison out of my house If I was a fallin’ autumn leaf I would be caught in an awful breeze I would be swept right out to sea And left to drown in my lack of beliefs Inevitable is the end of my life Even if I turned left when they read me my rights Setting my sights on escalating heights I seem to forget the fact that I Seem to forget the fact that I Need some spiritual shut eye Can’t give you a piece with out peace of mind When I just don’t feel alive The dust collects I clean but I can’t clean up this mess When I just don’t feel alive I can’t accept The fact that I’ll never come close to perfect When I just don’t feel alive The dust collects I clean but I can’t clean up this mess When I just don’t feel alive I can’t accept The fact that I’ll never come close to perfect

Your bedroom door is shut Not much left in this place but the floor and us Not much left for today but when tomorrow comes We gon’ rise with the similar signs The familiar sighs of goodbye Welcome into a new lease New city New police New thieves New streets New stoop to sweet You gon’ call this your home for a year And you hold on to the hopes that your hopes can live there Portland, it’s the home of the raincloud And indy punk rock bands that all have the same sound Portland, It’s gonna be my home soon And I wouldn’t mind if I could warm my house up with you If I sleep through the mornin’ I’ll work till the AM Cuddle up in bed with you and celebrate the days end We can fall in love and still be friends I breathe out when you breathe in [Repeat] Someone told me home isn’t where you live they said Home is finding happiness Well I don’t know what happiness is Or if it even exists My best art is Fueled by lethargic Darkness induced states And I doubt that a new place Will help with the knots in my emotional shoelaces I’ll make the dressing You pour a glass of wine We’ve been investing a lot in each others lies And when you’re gone up in Montreal I’ll charge up a card international calls I crave space I need distance But I can’t help but wish I could visit you If I sleep through the mornin’ I’ll work till the AM Cuddle up in bed with you and celebrate the days end We can fall in love and still be friends I breathe out while you breathe in [Repeat] I don’t need much just hardwood floors and love. [repeat]

I walk a thin line through the mountains And I’m just fine I’m just counting my steps Allowing my breath In and out I breathe I’m In and out of sleep I’ve been Getting out I’ve realized That every doubt can rewind And strike again It’s not that it’s imminent It’s just that I’ve seen my friends And I’ve been so close to death that I don’t know I don’t know I don’t know anything Fall winter summer spring How long have I been getting clean Perhaps I’ve never been I approach everything like it’s a drug Tighten the tourniquet fire it up My writing’s a knife and a knife it can cut When the blood from a cut’s not enough you’re fucked It’s a rabbit hole dive in I’ve been survivin’ barely I’m wonderin’ can you hear me If I scream when there’s nobody near me I wrote a love song a long time ago. And it went like this 
I took my pen and I put it to pad I called my father my dad I hugged my mother And told her I loved her And left all the rest in the past All the jabs and scrapes the wounds and cuts The do’s the don’ts the why’s the but’s The disgust Of a family severed Forever And it can’t get better The road of a broken family Not a root to be found in that family tree But the truth is that I am the answer see Alone I’m the common ancestry And it’s my job to bring em’ Together like freedom’ I am not weepin’ I am believin’ If not them then the next generation My children and I know I can’t save em’ But I will walk by them the best that I can Just like my mother did just like my dad Just like the people around me I see in the struggle I know you I love you I wrote a love song a long time ago [Repeat]

Driving down the backroads Hand rollin’ tobacco I wanted anything that i could lasso I wanted you you you you you you I wanted you you you you you you Abandoned honor pride and glory For another forty Pour it down and watch the way it warms me Until i’m sick and throwing up Another day another drug Another face another fuck I wait a bit Then let it hit I cannot wait But I can’t jump in About to sink wish I could swim Distanced from my next of kin All fam and friends Wave goodbye to them I couldn’t bare to play pretend But you you you You you you you you you You are my drug of choice Can only hear your voice I’m rattled, i’ve battled I ate the batch of bad apples I’m out the house like an asshole Cut the cotton mouth with a Snapple I sip it, it’s like pigment I can’t believe that it’s liquid I got a habit can’t kick it Account down to one digit I got nothing left in my pockets but That pipe scraped of it’s resin I’m a burnin’ ball of resentment On the long decent down from heaven If i ever hit the ground I’ll leave a crater like a meteor A decade past unsure what I’m still grieving for Except that you you you You you you You you you You you you You are my drug of choice You create then fill the void Its a sick cycle that I’m stuck in Without you I can’t function But with you I’m a fumbling dumb shit I mean Where’s the motivation Of a man who’s always wasted Never quite aware enough to face it Face it I had people tell me I had problems with my drugging I coughing up black gunk and I was struggling. Sitting up and tipping Driving drunk and drifting Oblivious to all that I was missing But i wanted you you you You you you You you you You you you You are my drug of choice And by you I’m employed Round and round that rodeo Chase the highs can’t face the lows There are so many times that I wish that I handled my self just a little more graceful But i didn’t And now I live with it It’s fact it isn’t option And the only chance that I have is to do something different It’s one day At a time i know And some day I will find my own People And surround myself with equals I leave you With this thought I had Many moons ago Nothing from this earth can fill a God sized hole But back then i wanted You you you You you you You you you You you you You were my drug of choice Could only hear your

The battle isn’t over yet Tighten the backpack shoulder strap We must go on and on in fact When we arrive we might just have to turn back 
I don’t know Where does this life go Hard to have sight in the night with eyes closed Hard to be nice in a fight for survival Lot of killing inside that christian bible I feel old I admit it had a prime and I passed it Dropped a couple albums with definitive classics Nothing left for me to do but keep rappin’ And pray everyday to God as I understand him I don’t know. Who am I to know. I don’t know a goddamn thing I don’t know who call when my phone ring But I gotta lotta mess in my brain Gotta lotta mess in my brain I don’t know a goddamn thing Don’t know how to tie a noose with this string But I gotta lotta mess in my brain Gotta lotta mess in my brain I don’t know a goddamn thing But I found I couldn’t hold my drink Yeah I gotta lotta mess in my brain Gotta lotta mess in my brain Gotta lotta mess in my brain So when I feel fuckin’ sick When I feel my life is so at risk Then I remember what it was like when that first sip Turned to a fifth Turned to a half into a gallon How quick I fell out of balance That bottled turned into a vulture that vulture had talons With my rent missed My skin itched My feet was asleep like pin pricks Depression it grew like interest Just me myself and ten fifths I lost myself and I cost myself all myself Haul myself down off the shelf and pawn myself Shit Sell me for less than a penny One soul for a bottle of Henny When that bottle is gone And that craving is strong I got nothing but hallow-ness in me Shit Fed me that lie and I bought it I’ll take whatever you’re offering I walk by myself and I talk to myself And I live in a virtual coffin Got it Isolations some hard shit Me alone in an apartment Or drinking to get through the darkness On a park bench Feelin’ Orphaned Family gone cuz I pushed them away Closed the door locked and threw away the key Too damn focused on what they did to me See I don’t know a goddamn thing I don’t know who call when my phone ring But I gotta lotta mess in my brain Gotta lotta mess in my brain I don’t know a goddamn thing Don’t know how to tie a noose with this string But I gotta lotta mess in my brain Gotta lotta mess in my brain I don’t know a goddamn thing But I found I couldn’t hold my drink Yeah I gotta lotta mess in my brain Gotta lotta mess in my brain Gotta lotta mess in my brain

Very careful who I’m close to walls up I don’t mean it but I see it when I’m vulnerable I am a traveling man I fly by the seat of my pants Let me level I would settle If I thought I could but I can’t If I brought the good with the bad I’d be balanced for once But I battle with myself set my dial for destruct And it piles up Buried in a stack of facts Problematic Former addict With a knack for raps He doesn’t fit in they say With his original display That honesty on top of beats is difficult to maintain But the mission isn’t finished Till the body leaves the spirit Feels alone but sees home in the mirror My body’s my home I travel these roads Where I come where I go I know [Repeat] Wake in a foreign place Haven’t slept in a bed for weeks Haven’t gotten a chance to be 
Alone with my dreams Though I keep movin’ I keep losin’ The smaller things Like the satisfaction hanging my jeans in a closet brings. In the world I live I curl up in A ball and drift away So either it’s a mistake Or it’s the life of positive change And I’m groggy this morning Yawning and warn from The couches and floors Stiff as a board I read what I wrote then I jot some more Remind myself That I find myself Inside myself Warm my hands on the heat from hell Button my coat tighten my belt Cuz the mission isn’t finished Till the body leaves the spirit Feels alone but sees home in the mirror. My body’s my home I travel these roads Where I come where I go I know [Repeat] As I mumble rhymes while I drive These double yellow lines ease the trouble in my mind [Repeat] My body’s my home I travel these roads Where I come where I go I know [Repeat]

And I woke up Choked up Feelin’ like a cold front Was comin’ Winter a whole month of nothing Feelin’ like I just got Hit with a big glock Feelin’ like a kid caught Liftin’ from the gift shop And what do we deserve I don’t know The birds that have flown Have all left their families all left their homes We’re all skin and bone Hangin’ on thread-less Trippin’ on fashion and getting on a guest list I left what I had Lost in the past Locked my self in my house bottle in a bag I was fucked up And I was tore down [Chorus] And I woke up fucked up Heart cuffed up Tough luck Felt like I belonged in a dump truck I was dead on arrival Garbage recycled Unable to face survival Watching with my eyes closed I couldn’t see a goddamn thing Waiting on that next damn drink Waiting on that next damn thing To trigger my addiction Missing her wishin’ I could learn how to live again I wanted to fly the coop But it’s hard to land without a parachute I was fucked up And I was tore down [Chorus]

I’ve gotta find a way I’ve gotta find a way I’ve gotta find a way I’ve gotta find a way I never could have predicted this Couldn’t envision it I don’t have super powers I am not Clark Kent I’m not a symphony not an orchestra I live inside my head but the powers off the cord’s unplugged I guess I’m sort of um An introverted type But if writing’s wrong then I don’t wanna be right And I can’t slow it down enough to try and catch it all A rocket headed for the moon tonight I’m blastin’ off And I’m gon’ land and stand the man that I demand to be Yeah it’s raining but my poetry’s my canopy And I write the speech Make the beat Push all the buttons It’s the life for me The life I lead Is all or nothing I was raised proper product of a broken home Now I’m a stage hopper rockin’ beats and microphones Ima pave the path pretending like the deck is stacked How can I give everything and still save the best for last. [Repeat] I’m way beyond your average local rapper with a couple friends In terms of exposure though I don’t even know who I am Problem yep it is Don’t even know my own fingerprints 2010 Brought recognition But I haven’t put out an album since I’ve got issues dog Live in the midst of mist and fog Lot of missed calls Got em’ pissed off This success is a shot in the dark And the truth is this even if I found the light The limelight is illusive til the time is right I was raised proper product of a broken home Now I’m a stage hopper rockin’ beats and microphones Ima pave the path pretending like the deck is stacked How can I give everything yet still save the best for last. [Repeat]

If I wrote a love song it’d be tangled in dismay In this way I parade Down the streets of grief The tune is fine but the wounds are deep I do believe In the sands of time Have been hit but the hand was mine I’m fine Or better at least I am kept on a leash Do my best til I’m free Leave me love me Teach me something I’ve been struggling One or another thing Always wanting never full Forever I pull and push and duel And look I’m cool I’m so composed Comprised of compromise my life I know Just get up and go And I’m sittin’ inside of it Wishin’ that I could just Fly Away [Repeat] I dedicate my whole day Face my soulmate Tell her I’m busy The music lives in me I’m finicky fidgety listen to me Rickety slipping not living in peace Not bashful no My passion flows But I drive so fast that I pass the road The medians wide And I cannot decide If I drive till I die then I’ll never arrive I’ll never commit So the pedal just sticks To the floor board I’m bored I’m yours I’m everything other that what you need The second that you try to hold me I leave I lean so hard that I can’t stand up Defining deciding my codependence And I wish I could fix it Expand without limits Break out of prison And handle commitment I’m sittin’ inside of it Wishin’ that I could just Fly Away [Repeat]

I gotta take me as I am both strong and weak I gotta thing for complicated speech I got a tooth that’s always wantin’ sweets I live inside of a shell of self help I try to write the songs but the songs write themselves If failures my quilt Then the sheets are the beats And I wrap em’ around me till it’s too tight to breathe Till I’m a cocoon of tunes And I won’t be finished until the butterflies fly me to the moon And I’ll fly right back With my raps as my map Keepin’ it simple lets the song keep me on track Then I’ll fly right back with my raps as my map Keepin’ it simple lets the song keep me on I know I got a mission but I don’t know where the finish is For now I’ll try to multiply my light instead of limit it I know I got a mission but I don’t know where the finish is For now I’ll try to multiply my light instead of limit it [Repeat] When I act like a coward then My Power’s thin It takes days to say things That I could have said in an hour if 
I left myself be so Peaceful Breathe slow And do away with the ego But I feel like I deserve a little more than I’m makin’ Maybe it’s time to put away the pride and get an agent I don’t collaborate well Don’t write for record sales Won’t become the image of the vision of someone else It’s just me I make the rhymes I make the beats It’s just me I make the rhymes I make the beats It’s just me I make the rhymes I make the beats I make the rhymes I make the beats I make the rhymes I make the beats I know I got a mission but I don’t know where the finish is For now I’ll try to multiply my light instead of limit it I know I got a mission but I don’t know where the finish is For now I’ll try to multiply my light instead of limit it [Repeat] I want to assemble one two three build a destiny a balanced foundation Start from the top and never stop till my days end Let my heart fill the music Put the songs on replay And see if I can influence a few people along the way And if it really catches on Then I can’t forget my process Make time to write Share my life And be honest If it really catches on I can’t forget my process I solemnly share to be honest I know I got a mission but I don’t know where the finish is For now I’ll try to multiply my light instead of limit it I know I got a mission but I don’t know where the finish is For now I’ll try to multiply my light instead of limit it

Addict Addict I still feel like an Addict Addict I still think like an addict I’m manic then so depressed They told me that it’d never make sense Cuz I’m an addict Addict Addict I still think like an Addict Addict I still feel like an addict I’m manic then so depressed They told me that it’d never make sense Cuz I’m an addict I thought that it was black and white Like I either use the pipe Or choose to do what’s right And I’ve been living a better life And yes I am clean From everything but caffeine From 19, 20, one two three and counting A whole lotta the road blocks Are not locked on the path I walk They used to pop up every half a block Especially after dark That’s when I struggled most Back when I strolled the green mile Down on addict row I used to pack a bowl Every waking moment So I didn’t have to know where I was and who I wasn’t And even though I’ve over come it through the madness It’s the every day reminding me defining me the addict I’m an Addict Addict I still feel like an Addict Addict I still think like an addict I’m manic then so depressed They told me that it’d never make sense Cuz I’m an addict Addict Addict I still think like an Addict Addict I still feel like an addict I’m manic then so depressed They told me that it’d never make sense Cuz I’m an addict I crave sugar every day I drink coffee every day When I’m alone I feel the change in my mentality I want somethin’ of substance to hold me Somethin’ of substance to control me I feel like a fuckin’ puppet I keep over eatin’ but it doesn’t cut it Does it If I lived inside an oven I couldn’t bake enough If I lived inside a bottle man I couldn’t drink enough Sing my songs to myself break me down Treat myself like a rug and shake me out But this dust clings stronger than I thought I need some help and I been thinkin’ of asking God God I’m an Addict Addict I still feel like an Addict Addict I still think like an addict I’m manic then so depressed They told me that it’d never make sense Cuz I’m an addict Addict Addict I still think like an Addict Addict I still feel like an addict I’m manic then so depressed They told me that it’d never make sense Cuz I’m an addict

I used to think I knew a lot then I forgot it all Moved up from the top down to the bottom pile I am the humble foundations of a doggy pile Squashed by the same damn thoughts that wrote my auto bio Didn’t live up to some dreams This is my come-clean I sacrificed being someone for something Out there I wanted to be Atmosphere Wanted to be better than you wanted to be everywhere At once And that cannot be done Plus that shit isn’t me and that shit isn’t fun I left my home and I forgot what home was Before long I ended up homeless My voice trembled and I hid behind vibrato Behind a pint and pretty girls in Colorado Do anything but admit a drinking problem Till I hopped in a put a lid up on that bottle 
And I wonder who you think that I would be If I wasn’t who I am If I wasn’t who I am [Repeat] Now give me freedom joy and happiness Or a pet cat and a platypus Anything but that need to drink mouthwash and half a fifth And absinth and aspirin Highs and graspin’’ Red eyes grippin’ to that toilet bowl gaspin’ For air And if it wasn’t for prayer Then I wouldn’t be here For air And if it wasn’t for prayer Then I wouldn’t be here That’s real I can’t breathe now I hid behind a name I didn’t know what I was doing I didn’t know what I was doing I didn’t know what I was doing I can’t breathe now I hid behind a name I didn’t know what I was doing I didn’t know what I was doing I didn’t know who I was losing And no one called me by my real name If that’s what you wanna call it Until I introduced myself Morgan, Alcoholic I am anonymous I am not famous But that doesn’t make me nothing And it doesn’t make me worthless I am what I am I tried it on the shirt fits 
Dammit I didn’t want that shirt to fit I didn’t want my perfect Smudged by all my bullshit And I wonder who you think that I would be If I wasn’t who I am If I wasn’t who I am [Repeat]

Find a balance and stand within Wet my pen I’m ramblin’ Find peace with the man I’ve been And sleep it off Ambian Drift away to a different day 
Love is such a mystery Goodbye from the first floor All the lies the ties and the word wars We both had fire does it matter who burnt more I’m sore I know you’re sore. Channelin’ my inner Drake No one likes feelin’ like you can’t escape I had changed the course I was losin’ faith You were changin’ clothes you were losin’ weight It wasn’t healthy then but I’m not happy now I would stand and bow While you’d stand around There wasn’t balance and there wasn’t trust Now I’m over here and you’re over us Uhh big hello from the East Coast I hope you’re grounded hope things are peaceful And if you got a man in your life I hope for damn sure he’s treating you right Like Find a balance and stand within Wet my pen I’m ramblin’ Find peace with the man I’ve been And sleep it off Ambian Drift away to a different day 
Love is such a mystery I’m feelin’ pretty dumb sick stupid Lost in music If you’re gone where’s my cupid If you’re gone there’s no movement Stagnant cool kid Lonely so he throws away his two cents I’m gone like happiness just hopped the fence and ran away Find me in Chicago find me in Sante Fe Find me in LA or find me in Rome I’ll be anywhere but home I’ll be gone on the road again Tryin’ to open up my soul again A backpack packed with Ibuprofen Tryin’ to numb the pain I feel so inflamed How can I do right when I feel so ashamed Goddamn One bad apple Even the doctor told me I was an asshole And even I believed him I’m drinkin’ but I’m toasting to the grievance And I’m singing out Find a balance and stand within Wet my pen I’m ramblin’ Find peace with the man I’ve been And sleep it off Ambian Drift away to a different day 
Love is such a mystery

I felt a little bit alone She didn’t know where I’d come from She felt me where I was Love love Leave love out of it she said Then love’s out of it I guess I just needed a place to rest my head And we kissed in the sand and I wished that we had it all Each letter she wrote And she took my hand and we ran on a beach called hope Like forever’s tomorrow And we kissed in the sand and I wished that we had it all Each letter she wrote And she took my hand and we ran on a beach called hope Like forever’s tomorrow I got in my car and I left your apartment Started the car and drove till the morning came Windshield wipers swished in vain These tears are like rain But I’m holdin’ again To the memory synapses Firing inaccurate And I wish that I was more like a kid again Innocent But I don’t forget though I try to forgive The bills stack up from these bandages And I wish that I lived A little bit closer than the same continent And we kissed in the sand and I wished that we had it all Each letter she wrote And she took my hand and we ran on a beach called hope Like forever’s tomorrow And we kissed in the sand and I wished that we had it all Each letter she wrote And she took my hand and we ran on a beach called hope Like forever’s tomorrow Nobody’s begging anybody for anything We’re not enemies We’re just caught in all of it See the world through a different lens So it’s red and grey and black and white I arrive the day you catch the flight I’m old enough to know you’re not alone And I dream of the life where I’m your someone And we held hands while breaking it off Go to hell if you think that I’m making this up Your lips were the first that I’d kissed in a year And I miss you the most when I look in the mirror And you’re not there in front of me And it’s haunting me On this summer’s eve And we kissed in the sand and I wished that we had it all Each letter she wrote And she took my hand and we ran on a beach called hope Like forever’s tomorrow And we kissed in the sand and I wished that we had it all Each letter she wrote And she took my hand and we ran on a beach called hope Like forever’s tomorrow Take me the way I am I want you to do whats best for you [Repeat] And we kissed in the sand and I wished that we had it all Each letter she wrote And she took my hand and we ran on a beach called hope Like forever’s tomorrow And we kissed in the sand and I wished that we had it all Each letter she wrote And she took my hand and we ran on a beach called hope Like forever’s tomorrow

She took me under her wing let me drink from her stream Till I was nourished and clean I found myself abandoned and yet Grateful to be free from the ship and it’s wreck I’d left with a mind state of no return imminent I’d entered the sacred covenant of love and then been Discarded kicked out released Just another whale on the beach Each leaf that I tried to turn had a lure But the grass isn’t green in that kind of pasture So I wandered questioning everything that had been As If I’d flown but had crashed on the landing I was lost and exhausted your place an oasis The fountain your faucet tap water graces My lips like I’ve never been quenched like this Lift me pull me from the darkness You can help me to harvest truth Can help me to start this move Help me to find me Help me cuz I’ve been [Repeat] You beautiful sittin’ on the floor Listenin’ to music that I’ve never heard before your Kindness astonishes me Your sweet voice rocks me to sleep Like the sweet breeze that sweeps through the maple trees Keep me close and we’ll visit in our dreams It feels simple it feels subtle It feels rich it feels comfortable But who am I to know I’m not good at this God knows I’ve misread perfect before I deal with some distance While finding compassion the pace for commitment Envisioning us In a limitless love Listen Listen to what I’ve written for You can help me to harvest truth Can help me to start this move Help me to find me Help me cuz I’ve been used [Repeat] We both know when inspiration stops everything stops [Repeat] You can help me to harvest truth Can help me to start this move Help me to find me Help me cuz I’ve been We both know when inspiration stops everything stops

Sometimes the sweetest inspiration Comes from devastation Comes from being sick of being patient Come from you and I yes Suit and tie dress Climb to the top of the city and kiss And wish there was a bathtub Settle for a back rub Never wanna let go on that last hug Never Fall asleep Windows over lookin’ this city Eleventh story balcony You can eat my ice cream And you can kiss me longer you kiss me perfect Eyes closed thinkin’ this is real this is worth it Hop another plane fly away fly away Just because I’m gone don’t think I’ve gone astray I focus on the beauty cuz the pain just betrays As I drive home lonely I watch you slip away I focus on the beauty cuz the pain just betrays As I drive home lonely I watch you slip away I never thought I’d lose myself again Never saw me fallin’ for someone I just met I close my eyes and picture you your face is in my head And now I’m second guessin’ was it real or just pretend I never thought I’d lose myself again Never saw me fallin’ for someone I just met I close my eyes and picture you your face is in my head And now I’m second guessin’ was it real or just pretend You move on faster than I do I think I used to just get plastered take another drink Now I sit and process all of it Not that I could solve it but I wish that I could figure out a way to get you off him And It feels like he’s more pursuing of you then you are of him But at the same time you’re not arguing And your not coming home with me I’m so lonely But not just for anyone for you only What if we wait until it’s dark again Reunite our hearts and then Chest to chest see if we can reignite the spark again I don’t know if you want it If you view it as an option But if you do call me I’m here I’m offerin’ I never thought I’d lose myself again Never saw me fallin’ for someone I just met I close my eyes and picture you your face is in my head And now I’m second guessin’ was it real or just pretend

It’s awful it’s scar-full my mind frame flipped like a bar stool Let me card you How are you Well I’ve lost my marbles Five times five with a lot to live No kitchen no pot to piss While I admit that I lost my shit Don’t tell me to be an optimist I’m on it 
Channel ten If it’s news for you you’ve found a friend Clue me in Tune me in No half a glass no weekend binge I’m with you hear me out All aboard the hear and now Lets live in the present Effortless Use us as a reference Lost and caught up Juice and water Juice and water Juice and water If you’re lost and caught up Juice and water Juice and water Juice and water What about that sugar man What about what could have been I could have moved out to Japan I could have won the Tour De France Damn You can trust me Dance even if you dance ugly Heaven around me water above me Rung by rung up the ladder of loving If you care for me Then my struggling is not embarrassing When I see you you mirror me And we light that fire kerosene I’m climbing losin’ pounds And crusin’ round With a newly found Improvin’ sound But for now I can’t have those who use around I’m so defiant I Trick myself denial right Kick myself nights fly on by That river to cross is a mile wide Fine I’m gon’ build a boat Fill my throat With all my hope And scream until I learn to cope This beautiful and stubborn soul Lost and caught up Juice and water Juice and water Juice and water If you’re lost and caught up Juice and water Juice and water Juice and water I wanna fly like Peter Pan Let’s meet in never ever land Cunning and baffling one drink head deep in damn quick sand I’m admired cuz I rap so quick So no one things I’m a masochist slash addict While the smile that I hide behind gets plastered in Get it I’m a fuckin’ fake Pathologic hurricane I drank alone while I swam in shame Gotta find the human behind the fame Fiddle with these syllables Shit went bad back in middle school Always wanting never full Chasing a high that I can’t handle Lost my beats and I lost my bass Instead took ten damn shots to the face Wrapped in haze Lost my way Cross my heart I lost my baby And that was everything I wanted I had it I lost it I forgot what I had promised When I’m lost and caught up Juice and water Juice and water Juice and water When I’m Lost and caught up Juice and water Juice and water Juice and water

I heard a voice saw a face In a clear mountain lake It was God it was grace It was loss it was change I dissected my reflection Tossed a stone in and wrecked it I saw the ripple effects I’m coming to terms I live in this mess I’m facing death Takin’ time takin’ rest Flowin’ more forcing less The balance hangs on baited breath I take success For granted no longer I’m stronger The world is ours we live and breathe The earth is not for conquering I’m humbled take me by the hand Help me find my feet I’ll stand When the fog is gone unveil the plan The drowning set the sails for land Arrival is to abstract to decipher But wherever I’m goin’ the rest of this ocean is mine my life is right here No more running I’ve stopped The motive can’t place money on top When I climb barbed wire my pants get caught And when I touch fire my hand gets hot And lately I’ve tried to trick myself but I cannot Cuz I remember what I’ve got I’ve got love I’ve got a lot I’ve got Rock For the life that opens up For the words I’ve had enough For the things we’ve overcome Come come on and Rock For the people that I love For the people that you love For the things we over come Come come on and Rock For the life that opens up For the words I’ve had enough For the things we’ve overcome Come come on and Rock For the people that I love For the people that you love For the things we over come Come come on and And I’m just growing up expanding with my family And finally putting faith in what I can’t see Trusting in that lusting isn’t all that makes the puzzle fit The choice becomes the action we always face the consequence Always no argument We’re all proof the heart can win I’m carving in impressions initials in bark and parchment I write for life my life likes my light when it’s lit up My minds right I shine bright and I will not give up 
Rare form bare form exposed no one there for him All alone find my zone and tap into that clairvoyance Writin’ like a healer while I feel like an invalid So grateful I can take the pen and write so I can sing this shit Rock For the life that opens up For the words I’ve had enough For the things we’ve overcome Come come on and Rock For the people that I love For the people that you love For the things we over come Come come on and Rock For the life that opens up For the words I’ve had enough For the things we’ve overcome Come come on and Rock For the people that I love For the people that you love For the things we over come Come come on and

Can you hear me now It’s the voice behind the brow Steady through whatever ready for what I’ve allowed I lay the beat basically Write the speech spaciously Gotta stop sedating me Gotta stop erasing me Pages be slippin’ off my tongue Like gum And every time I swallow em’ I hit rock bottom I’m a fuckin’ all passionate Old school masochist No cash to spend No fashion sense I had the light on switched off Like right on I’m pissed off Safe a couple nights and then I discharge Back to the vile To the wild In a pile To the bottle And every time I dug a hole the hole I dug was hollow I’m amazed I’ve been saved by a change in my brain Call it what you may Ima call it faith Ima call it God Ima call it grace I saw the writing on the wall now I will never turn away [Repeat] When the morning comes I’m up When the morning comes I’m up When the morning comes I’m up To greet the day To greet the day [Repeat] God bless you America You and all the parents of The children that I care about Who wonder ‘bout my whereabouts Been all about my business Egocentric sixth sense Travelin’ the map but I never call or visit and When did I grow so goddamn forgetful You all make me whole you all make me special You try to hold on and all I do is let go While the bricks of our friendship crumble like Lego’s And I don’t wanna die alone In a storm isolation is a cyclone Blocked locked away from everyone I love This is what Addiction sets it’s sights upon Soon as I’m gone I’m lone gone I’m like a beached whale Thought I’d be stuck in a rut but something deeper prevailed Head in a bottle foot in a pothole and I need help It couldn’t be nothing but the conscious of my weak self I’m amazed I’ve been saved by a change in my brain Call it what you may Ima call it faith Ima call it God Ima call it grace I saw the writing on the wall now I will never turn away [Repeat] I just wanna be a good friend I wanna be comfortable in my skin I just wanna be a good friend [Repeat]

And the cold settled I watched the sky as the snow fell like rose petals I let my eyes bleed dry inside that hospital I let myself draw blanks As I reassessed my life beside that oxygen tank I saw success and a lot of failure Clenching to the stems of my Azaleas Yea that scent so familiar Feelin’ old ancient they study me an artifact The mystery a young man’s heart attack They asked me if I ate unhealthy If it was methamphetamine They even asked if I had HIV They asked me if I ate unhealthy And if it was methamphetamine Like have I ever used drugs intravenously And I can talk about invasive The pushing of my patience Want an EKG from me while I’m hyperventilating Staring at the faces of a hundred different strangers I saw death and realized that it was sacred La da da da da da da da I am alive [Repeat] I need a lot less than I thought to live I need that blood clot test to not read positive I need people around me that value consciousness And I don’t need much else I saw then that I was restin’ in a room not a cell Walk eleven laps around the hospital to map a mile Monitor attached to my chest and wrapped inside my gown Feelin’ stripped of everything I own Skin and bones With my heart steady tickin’ like a metronome We don’t know We don’t know The nurses they don’t know The doctor he don’t know Prognosis unknown We don’t know We don’t know The nurses they don’t know The doctor he don’t know Diagnosis unknown And so I leave Not too much achieved Although I know I don’t have cardio vascular disease Standin’ on the street Takin’ in the breeze While I wonder what my next step should be La da da da da da da da I am alive [Repeat]

Holy shit I’m back to makin’ beats Without a demographic they could reach Who am I to speak Got nothin’ but my mind up my sleeve Card tricks and aces Ever shifting sets of faces They been changin’ I been chasing my complacence I been aging Slowly breakin’ down body mind and spirit Holdin’ on through the thin thread of these lyrics That’s me I been Prioritizing differently Organize a symphony Inside my head then watch it die shed the tears of sympathy I am myself I go Toe to toe with my ego It’s like being sixteen again The difference being I am grown Mentally emotionally Relationships groceries What a roller coaster ride I fly then dive into my late twenties The shoes too big to fit em’ When I couldn’t then I hid em’ So i buried em’ in the closet Shoulders slouched and hands in pockets I was lost and tossed my caution in the washer then I dried it Inspiration bottled up but I stayed quiet I Sing for love [Repeat] I speak about life And the steep price Of the rewrite This time I trapped my soul inside a bottle Not a weed pipe I lived it Cautions indifferent Nauseous no kiddin’ I’d be throwin’ em’ up in the morning Then I’d be throwin’ em’ back in the evening I was dyin’ Every sentence was a lie And every statement was self hatred Fear it blocks imagination But I had to face the face that I was faced with Every morning when I’d wake up try to wash away the wasted But it wasn’t going nowhere Wore me like a coat yeah Tried to trick me told me that I don’t care Well I do care and I know that now I hold my ground I hope my sound carries me away Lord don’t bury me today I wanna live I wanna thrive I wanna carve and find my way I gotta lot to give a lot that’s mine Help me find my place I will sow seeds grow roots Rely on my go to’s And be there for others Cuz we need each other for love I sing for love [Repeat] It’s all reciprocal the energy It’s simple too you listen me I listen you we’ll co-create Right in this room and change the mood It’s beautiful I’m more alive that usual I’m more inspired than usual Probly cuz I spent the day outside did you Listen we just have one moment We just have one moment Put it on repeat forever because this is all we’re getting I mean focus here and now and then The world gets clear you comprehend That which used to baffle you From recipes to traffic rules Every waking moment every single second I will not stop growing I will not stop stretching I will not stop listen this is one great truth You might want the world to stop sometimes but it won’t stop for you. I tried to put the pause on drinking Put the pause on thinking If I waited long enough then I’d stop aching But the pain contains a message and we have to crack it open And I’m here to let you know that it’s not hopeless I sing for love [Repeat]